just for the sake of being alive

i just got home from ayia fucking napa!!

& i survived :D which is kinda awesome :)

we had such a great time & pictures will come

as soon as i get them from anna :)

but here is atleast one of me & my 1 litre drink

this is not what you want me for

sooon, really soon... in 40 minutes
my dad will drive me & anna to the airport.

& it feels so unreal..

& yes, when i have nothing to do i edit ego pictures...

who the hell cares at the end of it all

tomorrow i'm going & i'm nervous..

it's not that i don't like to fly, i kind of love it

but i don't like being away from my bed XD

still, i almost done with the packing & just have like

a few things left to throw in my bag.....

so in 24 hours, i'll be in Ayia Napa.

hopefully with a drink i my hand :)

& the pictures are sort of... weird :D

you make it to hard

eto... i'm confused

& sick

& for the first time in a long time
i feel very lonely.

picture from yesterday

i'm always in this twilight

i'm even more sick today,
& all that regret from how much money you spent..

it wasn't that much though..

but i lost 100:- on the dance floor

& were almost forced to pay for my chickenkebab twice

since no one of the workers belived that i've allready paid :(

well.. it's only 6 days until we're going to Ayia Napa now
& i can't wait! we're going to have soooo much fun!

but with all that said i'll throw my deceased body on the bed
& sleep til' next friday or something.

it is a beautiful night for madness

yesterday was very awesome!

but it wasn't the smartest thing
going away to something like a concert
& stand up & jump for 6 hours
so i feel a little bad right now.... but that's
nothing a little alcohol can solve.

yay!

you'll tell me if i should leave, right

i'm fighting my disease, or what ever it is..

anyways, feel a lot better today

so now i'm very happy to get away from my room

to watch the best man alive sing & be all pretty...

Winnerbäck ♥

& yes, i'll bring my camera so maybe i'll get some good pictures.

the world i used to know now seems gigantly small

it feels like my last posts have been sort of

depressing, & that's not really that awesome.

so i re-edited some of my old gay flowers

& thought that they might cheer the
whole situtation up a bit...

so while i heal in my bed for the next two days or so
you can all just, stare at my gay flowers & be happy,

since gay means happy this plan is waterproof!

:D

& also, what makes someone more happy than Andrew Bird?

Vidalia

don't forget to kick me out when the first snow falls

there is this chaos in my head.

where nothing makes sence anymore

where i have nothing to grasp

in the midst of all this darkness

called summer nights.

i've never felt more alone then right now

even if i've never enjoyed my self

as much as today & yesterday.

& i'll drive so fucking far away
that i never cross your mind

mother nature is a whore

i'm sick, again. third time this vacation.

i don't usually get sick but i guess there is

something about this summer...

it's stupid anyhow.

well actually i can't sit at my computer for to long,

then my eyes hurt & i get dizzy.. so yay me!

watashi o korosu

a busted lip & broken skin

I wake up in the bathroom
and dare not bother asking
why the mirror's craked and all I see
are shards of glass inside of me

And while I wait for wounds to heal
I see you by the window sil,
your heart's torn out
a plastic spoon
when honesty lit up that room
so I stole the pillowcase to clean
this mess I've made of someones dream.
Now you've seen what I've done..

when the weight of all the world's gone wrong again

hate me today, hate me tomorrow

i wanna be your perfect stick of glue

but i don't feel perfect at all.

eto... i have nothing to write,
except for the fact that..

no, not even that..

Blue October – Hate Me

Blue October – Picking Up Pieces

Naked Blue – I'd Do Anything