tisdag, augusti 31, 2010

i fell in love with a killer smile

ah, autumn is very much around the corner
i don't like the cold so much but everything
is very pretty. colors & such...

anyways, bought new clothes today with petra,
feels like a good enough investment for now
don't really feel like going to school tomorrow,
errr...








söndag, augusti 29, 2010

it feels like i've been here before

i haven't updated in almost a week,
& well, might be because nothing has happened
exept that i got sick again i stayed home for the most of the week
but i went to the movies & we watched toy story 3
it was really funny... so everyone should watch it i think :)

today then, this boring sunday
i went out just after the rain & took some pictures
& if this stupid site would stop f*ckin' with me
i might be able to upload them...
but not tonight i suppose....

anyways, here is one of my work in need of progress
'cause that seem to work...


måndag, augusti 23, 2010

your thoughts are crawling like cockroaches under my skin

it's a fresh start, a new beginning
it's the lost memories of what is past
& the eary feeling that everything will be fine.

i got acepted to a school in Japan
& regular school started today,
i overslept & ate to much at lunch..
still, good start.... i can't wait for next october.
4th october 2011 :))

söndag, augusti 22, 2010

just as intimate as it is hollow

a cramp, a hard enclosing cramp that eats it's way through all protecting membrane.
an unrestraind monster that gluttonous chews it self towards my consciousness
there's eyes on the paper, eyes that are stained by ink & who takes notes of everything
every breath is recorded to over & over again be played, in hope to stay in that intoxicated moment.

an almost narcotic & treacherous high, that shake every part of my dazed mind.
in one of all the earthquakes i'm hit by regret for something that never before was there to miss.
but then it very fast turns in to a mild melancoli & i let the earthquake shatter all of my windows towards the other side of the world.

we used to romanticize about our madness, we suffocated it with love & secrets.
we breath for manic nights that was haunted by nicotine & a bitter sleeplessness
sometimes the moon still refelcts the same listlessness as your eyes
& i remember that boredom that was mixed with every imaginary sentence

breath in to me & make me real

i was bored yesterday, so i decided to learn something new
ergo my pretty balloon animals :)
it's totaly awesome & kind of easy...
now i'm goin' to my mom to celibrate my sister
who turns 13 today ^^










lördag, augusti 21, 2010

just for the sake of being alive

i just got home from ayia fucking napa!!
& i survived :D which is kinda awesome :)
we had such a great time & pictures will come
as soon as i get them from anna :)

but here is atleast one of me & my 1 litre drink




fredag, augusti 13, 2010

this is not what you want me for

sooon, really soon... in 40 minutes
my dad will drive me & anna to the airport.
& it feels so unreal..

& yes, when i have nothing to do i edit ego pictures...







torsdag, augusti 12, 2010

who the hell cares at the end of it all

tomorrow i'm going & i'm nervous..
it's not that i don't like to fly, i kind of love it
but i don't like being away from my bed XD
still, i almost done with the packing & just have like
a few things left to throw in my bag.....
so in 24 hours, i'll be in Ayia Napa.
hopefully with a drink i my hand :)


& the pictures are sort of... weird :D

lördag, augusti 07, 2010

you make it to hard

eto... i'm confused
& sick
& for the first time in a long time
i feel very lonely.


picture from yesterday



i'm always in this twilight

i'm even more sick today,
& all that regret from how much money you spent..
it wasn't that much though..
but i lost 100:- on the dance floor
& were almost forced to pay for my chickenkebab twice
since no one of the workers belived that i've allready paid :(

well.. it's only 6 days until we're going to Ayia Napa now
& i can't wait! we're going to have soooo much fun!
but with all that said i'll throw my deceased body on the bed
& sleep til' next friday or something.

fredag, augusti 06, 2010

it is a beautiful night for madness

yesterday was very awesome!
but it wasn't the smartest thing
going away to something like a concert
& stand up & jump for 6 hours
so i feel a little bad right now.... but that's
nothing a little alcohol can solve.
yay!





















torsdag, augusti 05, 2010

you'll tell me if i should leave, right

i'm fighting my disease, or what ever it is..
anyways, feel a lot better today
so now i'm very happy to get away from my room
to watch the best man alive sing & be all pretty...
Winnerbäck

& yes, i'll bring my camera so maybe i'll get some good pictures.



tisdag, augusti 03, 2010

the world i used to know now seems gigantly small

it feels like my last posts have been sort of
depressing, & that's not really that awesome.
so i re-edited some of my old gay flowers
& thought that they might cheer the
whole situtation up a bit...
so while i heal in my bed for the next two days or so
you can all just, stare at my gay flowers & be happy,
since gay means happy this plan is waterproof!
:D

& also, what makes someone more happy than Andrew Bird?






måndag, augusti 02, 2010

don't forget to kick me out when the first snow falls

there is this chaos in my head.
where nothing makes sence anymore
where i have nothing to grasp
in the midst of all this darkness
called summer nights.
i've never felt more alone then right now
even if i've never enjoyed my self
as much as today & yesterday.


& i'll drive so fucking far away
that i never cross your mind



mother nature is a whore

i'm sick, again. third time this vacation.
i don't usually get sick but i guess there is
something about this summer...
it's stupid anyhow.

well actually i can't sit at my computer for to long,
then my eyes hurt & i get dizzy.. so yay me!


watashi o korosu




söndag, augusti 01, 2010

a busted lip & broken skin

I wake up in the bathroom
and dare not bother asking
why the mirror's craked and all I see
are shards of glass inside of me

And while I wait for wounds to heal
I see you by the window sil,
your heart's torn out
a plastic spoon
when honesty lit up that room
so I stole the pillowcase to clean
this mess I've made of someones dream.
Now you've seen what I've done..

when the weight of all the world's gone wrong again

hate me today, hate me tomorrow

i wanna be your perfect stick of glue
but i don't feel perfect at all.

eto... i have nothing to write,
except for the fact that..
no, not even that..